“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.”
Why I’m A Christian
This is a pretty big topic to cover, and this blog post alone won’t come anywhere close to fully explaining all of the why’s and when’s of my walk with Christ. I don’t think it’s even possible to put into words exactly why I’m a Christian. However, I know that a lot of people will wonder why Christians have faith, well, maybe they’re wondering more how Christians can have the faith they do in the world that we live in.
I have a tumblr account which currently has 1,239 messages in the inbox. I try to reply to around 5-10 messages per day (privately when I can, but a lot of the messages are anonymous which means I have to post them publicly, so if you’d like so read some of them and the answers I’ve given, click here)
I would say around 60-70% of the messages in my inbox are from people who are suffering either with trauma in their life, with mental illness, with relationships, or school/work, and a lot of people are asking questions about weight loss and how they can be happy with their bodies.
This is really upsetting, because to feel something so strongly and to be so worried about it that you feel the need to reach out to some random girl on the internet who has a blog, and to trust her to give you life changing answers… well you must be feeling pretty lost.
Honestly, I feel as though I’m one of the least equipped people to answer all of these messages. I’m not trained in nutrition or medicine or psychology or anything like that, I have no special knowledge on these topics, and at the end of the day, I’m pretty powerless to help anyone since I’m miles and miles away and sitting behind a computer screen.
I mean, I’m a literature student, so I can most definitely show you how to read things into a book that the author probably had no intention in the slightest of implying through their work, but I feel completely unprepared to answer questions about what you should do in these awful situations that you’ve found yourself in, and I’m so lost for answers when you ask me what to do when you’re feeling suicidal, or when you want to throw up everything you eat. My heart aches for you, and I wish I could be there with you to wrap you up in my arms and give you the love that I know you deserve, but I can’t.
I was thinking about this as I was going through my inbox yesterday, and it hit me that what you need is an ever present counsellor, a protector, a guide, a comforter; what you need is God. I realised that the best thing I can do for you is to pray for you, and to teach you about my counsellor, my protector, my guide, my comforter, my God. Because my God is your God, my God is your teacher, your helper, your redeemer, your healer and your saviour.
If I can show you some insight into why I’m a Christian, and why I choose to believe in God and live the way that I do, maybe I can open your eyes to a better way of living, a happier, more fulfilling, more peaceful way of being. So that maybe you can turn to Him in your time of despair, and He can satisfy and uplift you, instead of you feeling the need to go and find some person on the internet who you think might be able to offer words of comfort but who, in reality, can do nothing in comparison to the transformative powers of God in your life.
So why am I so sure that God exists? Why am I a Christian?
I call myself a Christian because I follow God, the God who was so concerned for us humans, and the unavoidable consequences of our sinful actions, that He was willing to allow His own son, an intimate part of God himself, to be whipped, mocked, beaten, physically and emotionally tortured and killed in the most gruesome and inhumane way possible, all so that we don’t have to pay the ultimate price for how we choose to live, the mistakes we make, and the wrongdoings along the way.
Can we just sit back and appreciate that for a second? Someone was ready to be crucified (click here to find out what that is) because He saw all that you have and will do wrong, all of the pain you have and will cause, He saw that and took the punishment for it so that you don’t have to. He did it so that all of the mistakes you make, the awful things that you choose to do, or think, or say, all of that can be, and is, forgiven.
He paid the ultimate penalty for the transgressions of every single person who has ever lived and ever will live when he took up that place on the cross. Can you imagine – the God of the universe lowering himself to the position of a human man, and allowing those who He loves and has come to save, to torture, mock and murder him.
Do you know why He did this? Because regardless of your inadequacies, regardless of how you think or how you act or what you choose to do, regardless of whether you believe He exists or what religious teachings you do or don’t follow, He loves you, He is absolutely head-over-heels, madly in love with you. I don’t know about you, but I am so humbled by this. No matter how hard I tried, I could never deserve the unconditional forgiveness that God gives to me.
But that’s what’s so wonderful about God’s grace; we don’t need to deserve it, we don’t need to earn it or try to get God to notice us and love us – He does it anyway. His sacrifice made it so that we are already forgiven, we are already cherished, already loved, we are always valued and appreciated and protected, and God is always rooting for us.
Jesus crossed the divide between the divine and ourselves. He made a way for us to feel, experience, and live alongside God. This means that we can let go of the pain that drags us down, we can let go of our burdens, our worries, our anxieties, our stresses, our illnesses. We can let go of everything that is toxic and negative in our lives, and give it all over to God. He wants to take it from you. He’s strong enough to save you, loving enough to want to, and He knows exactly what that would look like for you personally.
From the moment I realised what the sacrifice of Jesus truly meant for this world, I chose to live my life in alignment with what God would want for me. That doesn’t mean that i’m perfect or that I always act in a ‘good’ way, but it does mean that I realise my inadequacies and bring everything, all of my failings, before God, and He wipes my slate clean. I know that God protects me, He has healed my body from illness and my mind from disorder, and every single day He reminds me that He’s there cheering me on in my successes, and holding me tight in my failures. He shows me which doors to open and which to close, He showers me with affirmation when I need reassurance, and His fierce love guides me back towards Himself whenever I wander into sin.
I’m a christian because it is the least I can do to thank God for what He did on that cross. It’s the most obvious decision to make. I know the truth of God, I feel His love and His forgiveness, He speaks into my life and when I listen, amazing things happen. I have been so incredibly blessed in every area of my life and I have no doubt that this is the work of God. I may not even be here to write this blog post if I didn’t believe in God. He pulled me from the pits of anorexia; He taught me how to respect and nourish my body, He taught me how to eat, how to overcome disordered thoughts, and how to completely free myself from them. He showed me the beauty in the world and pulls at my heart every day for the brokenness surrounding us all. He inspired me to live so that I can help to heal our universe.
There’s not a single tragedy that has happened to me that hasn’t been soothed by God’s steady, unfailing love. There’s not been one moment of despairing solitude since inviting God into my life. Loneliness has been defeated because God is an ever-present companion. Jealousy is shaken off whenever I turn to God, because He provides me with everything I need when I feel His abundance of love washing over me. Fear, anxiety, worry, these things no longer have to bind me, because I know that God’s word unlocks the ultimate security and reassurance that is so much stronger than fear.
Wherever you’re at in this moment, whether you’re thinking about God for the first time, whether you’re a Christian, Atheist, Agnostic… whatever and whoever you are, in the quiet of your own space, take some time to ask God to reveal Himself to you. All that you have to do is say the simple words “Lord, if you’re here with me, let me know” and wait on Him.
“God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ. By grace you have been saved.”