“My flesh and my heart may fail, But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”
So I thought that these first few posts should help you to get to know me, the blogger, a little bit. Since you’re here reading what I’m wiring, it’s only fair that you get some idea of who it is you’re chatting with! (plus, I’d love for this blog to be pretty informal, I want to connect with you, to get to know you and to help you out and inspire you as much as I possibly can). You guys are only really going to want get chatting with me if you know a few things about me and feel a bit more connected to me and my blog!
My name is Tamar Hope (first name and middle name, I thought this would be a better choice than Tamar Smith because a. I don’t really feel as though ‘tamarsmith’ as a brand has the same ring to it as ‘tamarhope’, b. ‘Hope’ is a great foundation upon which to build your life, and having it in my name has been so helpful to me over the years, it’s a constant reminder to have hope, to never lose hope, as well as reminding me of all the times in my life where the fact that I did hold onto hope paid off, and was fruitful, and brought about joy, and c. My surname will be changing to Willoughby in around 8 months, and I didn’t much fancy an entire rebrand after only 8 months of blogging!) So, the name ‘tamarhope’ was born.
I’m 21 years old (I’ll be 22 tomorrow, on the 8th November) and I’m not sure how I feel about it. One minute, I feel really young, like I’m really still a child (mostly when I’m doing any ‘wedmin’… I’m 21, which is young to be marrying anyway, throw into the mixture that if I don’t wear a bra, I could probably pass for 12 years old, and you get a lot of surprised looks when people notice your engagement ring!), but then another minute I’ll realise that 22 is like actual adult age and I have a mini existential crisis about the fact that I’m growing up and don’t yet know who I am, or what I want to do, or where I’m going to be in 5 years! The security of knowing that wherever it is, it’ll be with God and with Matt helps that little crisis to calm a bit though.
So now you know my name, and my age, here are some photos of my face! At the moment, I have no computer and am using my mum’s laptop to blog (she’s very kind letting me take her laptop 40 miles away from her to my university!) so, I only have access to photos that she has of me, and as it turns out, they’re all from our little family trip to Portugal this summer. So, I’m hitting a two in one here! Sharing snaps of Portugal (the Algarve is so lovely, in case you’re ever planning to go, i highly recommend it), and photos of me, too!
My mum took these snaps of me one of our final nights in Portugal. I remember we’d just gone out for pizza, and on our way back to the apartment we were staying in, I decided I wanted one last look at the beautiful Praia Da Luz. So I ran onto the beach, stripped down and went straight for the ocean. It’s a moment of pure happiness, pure wonder, and these photos give me so much joy to look at. I hope you can see the genuine contentment and happiness in that smile!
So, this leads me onto another thing that might become apparent over the course of this blog (or, if you happen to spy the tattoo on my left forearm). I love the ocean. I can’t never quite put my finger on exactly why I love it. It’s not the fact that there’s water, and I’m actually allergic to sand (but then again, I’m allergic to a lot of things, so I’m used to that!) It’s got a lot more to do with the fact that, when I’m at the ocean, I can feel my smallness, and I love it. It’s like, any problems that I have just go away, because how can they be of any significance at all when I’m looking at something so vast, so deep, so full of life as the ocean? It’s a thin place for me. A place where I can see God, I can feel His creation, and it fills me right up to the brim with awe and wonder. It’s a life-giving force, and I want to soak up as much of it as I can.
Another thing about me – I’m a christian. I’m planning to make a whole post about this, because it really is quite a big part of my life and my reason for doing the things I’m doing, and pursuing the things that I’m pursuing. Thing is, God saved my life. He well and truly emptied my hands, filled up my heart, wrapped his arms around my body and carried me through some really, really difficult times. There is just no doubt in my mind the God is here, that He loves me, that He loves you, and that He wants the best for all of us. Ever since that time in my life when God carried me, clothed me, fed me, nourished me, at a time when I couldn’t even get out of bed out of my own strength, I have been changed completely. So, yes, my testimony is coming soon, and it’s likely to be a long one, and an on-going one, since God continues to change and renew me and work through me to this day (and, I hope, will do for the rest of my life).
I’m an absolute sucker for cute animals. Show me a photo of a cute cat and I’ll turn to putty in your hands, if it’s a video of a cute cat doing something cute, preferably with a puppy or another kitty, then I’m sorry but I’ll be weaping and you’ll have to stroke my hair or bring me some baby animals to cuddle. Matt likes to torture me by sending me links to blog posts along the lines of ‘How to tell if you dog loves you’, ‘Cutest puppy trips over his own head’, ‘dog breeds that love their owners the most’.. you get the picture. I’m an emotional wreck.
If you have pinterest, you should take a look at mine and you’ll get a great feel for my interests and my kind of aesthetic/style that I go for. I adore boho styles, house plants, big bright windows, but also marble effects, pretty notebooks, clean spaces, white walls, wooden floorboards, messy buns and festival braids… the list goes on! I love DIYs, eating (and creating) great food, writing, reading, thinking, imagining. I could sit and create for hours on end and the time would fly by like it had only been a minute, and my soul would be so at peace!
If you’ve made it this far and have read through this whole post, then well done! I commend you! I hope that this post has been able to give you a little bit of insight into who I am and what you can expect from my blog. Please do leave me a comment and let me know who you are, it would be so great to meet you!
“And looking at them Jesus said to them, “With people this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”